Named after the shepherdess in Virgil's pastoral Eclogues. The Greek word amarysso means "to sparkle." In Victorian times, an "amaryllis" was a strong, confident, and beautiful woman.
You've always got some wisdom to say, huh. [she says, faintly amused.] ... It's alright if you can't get past it. Figure someone around here ought to be mad at me for killing them.
Comes with being an Ancient. [it's a groggy kind of joke, something she says without thinking and without knowing if karlach even knows what she's talking about. she can't remember. we are soup-brained for a bit.]
...Karlach. If I couldn't be mad at Lucas, what makes you think I could be mad at you? I should be mad. I know that. And I'm mad about what was done to all of us. But it's harder to apply the anger directly to you and your hands.
[she vaguely remembers this from a memory, but... she puts a pin in that for a moment, because it seems like a lot to ask about when they're both struggling to remember who they actually are.
there's a little scrunchy emotion at that. her tail wraps around her legs.]
I know, I know. [she keeps... hearing that. a beat.] You don't think it's your fault though, right?
No. And I don't think it's yours either. [firmly.] Of course there are choices we both made. It'd be silly to deny that. But I don't think those are choices we can really hold against each other, because we were pushed to make them by something else.
[she says, and that's honest. there's still... guilt, there, she still feels guilty because it's hard for her not to, even if she knows it wasn't her fault. that's just something she has to work through, and she's trying.
the acknowledgement is enough. it happened.]
I think both of us could use a break from being used.
[she still hasn't removed her hand from karlach's head, staring off into a point of the room for a moment.]
I think you're right about that one. [it's...tiring, she thinks.] It's...sometimes harder and harder to come back when things like this keep happening to you over and over again. But that's when we keep reminding each other that things can and will be different.
[she's busy rotating her palm so they can hold hands, sorry.]
...I'll try. [she says this mostly because she's always been so used to taking care of other people and looking out for herself, but also because she's currently unsure if it's even worth worrying about her when she's not sure she's going to stick around. whenever the real aerith returns...shouldn't karlach put her energy into that?
she seems to acknowledge it's a weird though though.]
Things will be different. No more being used. We'll do what's best for us and get ourselves out of here.
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she will take the head pat though.]
You've always got some wisdom to say, huh. [she says, faintly amused.] ... It's alright if you can't get past it. Figure someone around here ought to be mad at me for killing them.
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...Karlach. If I couldn't be mad at Lucas, what makes you think I could be mad at you? I should be mad. I know that. And I'm mad about what was done to all of us. But it's harder to apply the anger directly to you and your hands.
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there's a little scrunchy emotion at that. her tail wraps around her legs.]
I know, I know. [she keeps... hearing that. a beat.] You don't think it's your fault though, right?
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[she says, and that's honest. there's still... guilt, there, she still feels guilty because it's hard for her not to, even if she knows it wasn't her fault. that's just something she has to work through, and she's trying.
the acknowledgement is enough. it happened.]
I think both of us could use a break from being used.
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I think you're right about that one. [it's...tiring, she thinks.] It's...sometimes harder and harder to come back when things like this keep happening to you over and over again. But that's when we keep reminding each other that things can and will be different.
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You ought to let me look out for you a bit, you know. Not that I don't appreciate you taking care of my brain, just, you know.
So. Things will be different. We're out. You're you, and I'm me. We'll be okay.
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...I'll try. [she says this mostly because she's always been so used to taking care of other people and looking out for herself, but also because she's currently unsure if it's even worth worrying about her when she's not sure she's going to stick around. whenever the real aerith returns...shouldn't karlach put her energy into that?
she seems to acknowledge it's a weird though though.]
Things will be different. No more being used. We'll do what's best for us and get ourselves out of here.