Named after the shepherdess in Virgil's pastoral Eclogues. The Greek word amarysso means "to sparkle." In Victorian times, an "amaryllis" was a strong, confident, and beautiful woman.
[she says, and that's honest. there's still... guilt, there, she still feels guilty because it's hard for her not to, even if she knows it wasn't her fault. that's just something she has to work through, and she's trying.
the acknowledgement is enough. it happened.]
I think both of us could use a break from being used.
[she still hasn't removed her hand from karlach's head, staring off into a point of the room for a moment.]
I think you're right about that one. [it's...tiring, she thinks.] It's...sometimes harder and harder to come back when things like this keep happening to you over and over again. But that's when we keep reminding each other that things can and will be different.
[she's busy rotating her palm so they can hold hands, sorry.]
...I'll try. [she says this mostly because she's always been so used to taking care of other people and looking out for herself, but also because she's currently unsure if it's even worth worrying about her when she's not sure she's going to stick around. whenever the real aerith returns...shouldn't karlach put her energy into that?
she seems to acknowledge it's a weird though though.]
Things will be different. No more being used. We'll do what's best for us and get ourselves out of here.
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[she says, and that's honest. there's still... guilt, there, she still feels guilty because it's hard for her not to, even if she knows it wasn't her fault. that's just something she has to work through, and she's trying.
the acknowledgement is enough. it happened.]
I think both of us could use a break from being used.
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I think you're right about that one. [it's...tiring, she thinks.] It's...sometimes harder and harder to come back when things like this keep happening to you over and over again. But that's when we keep reminding each other that things can and will be different.
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You ought to let me look out for you a bit, you know. Not that I don't appreciate you taking care of my brain, just, you know.
So. Things will be different. We're out. You're you, and I'm me. We'll be okay.
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...I'll try. [she says this mostly because she's always been so used to taking care of other people and looking out for herself, but also because she's currently unsure if it's even worth worrying about her when she's not sure she's going to stick around. whenever the real aerith returns...shouldn't karlach put her energy into that?
she seems to acknowledge it's a weird though though.]
Things will be different. No more being used. We'll do what's best for us and get ourselves out of here.