Funny circumstances, right? All these little pieces aligned to make sure I'd get out of the Hells, and now I'm going to put my claws in the grass on the outside.
[brainworms, huh. that sounds like a silly offhand comment. anyway, she thinks.]
Untethering myself from a bad influence also meant untethering myself from... power, yes, but more than that. I always knew if I became angry or desperate, I'd bring it back. I couldn't live with avoiding it. Easier to adapt.
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Guess I can't exactly argue you on that one. [she'd be a hypocrite!] But the ones who care about you are going to want the same thing for you.
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[hmm.]
What about you, then? Do you have hopes to get your freedom?
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[is the answer she comes up with, at length.]
Funny circumstances, right? All these little pieces aligned to make sure I'd get out of the Hells, and now I'm going to put my claws in the grass on the outside.
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[and i think she realizes the same is true for her, right now, but she isn't sure how she feels about that.]
Have you been running from them long?
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I don't think so. Maybe it's hard getting out of the consequences of my choices, though. [a little grin.]
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[so she let it back in.]
What consequences?
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[...] What d'you mean, still needed all of it?
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Untethering myself from a bad influence also meant untethering myself from... power, yes, but more than that. I always knew if I became angry or desperate, I'd bring it back. I couldn't live with avoiding it. Easier to adapt.
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Guess I don't exactly need to tell you this, but - make a deal with the devil and you're going to get burned, no matter which way you turn.
[she doesn't think the devil has to be literal - it can be power, it can be anything.]
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[she knows that's true.]
But you can be an innocent bystander and be burned just the same, and with much less to show for it.
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... I wish it wasn't like that. [but she's not blindly optimistic. it's just a nice thought.]
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