Named after the shepherdess in Virgil's pastoral Eclogues. The Greek word amarysso means "to sparkle." In Victorian times, an "amaryllis" was a strong, confident, and beautiful woman.
A little. But I don't want to doom someone, if I end up dying here. If I get monstered, if I get picked off. [she was much more insistent about this to start, but she's wavering now.]
No. I...have suspicions of what happened last week, but I still hesitate to put a name to it. Or rather to who. I don't want to blame someone and have it be wrong. The last thing we need is spreading paranoia amongst ourselves.
...people are taking care of you, too, aren't they? I know you don't mind talking people down and that you care about them so much, but you need someone yourself, too. That's a lot for one person to bear.
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[she says, quiet.]
... But yeah. Can't say the wishes weren't real fucking tempting.
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...are they still tempting now?
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A little. But I don't want to doom someone, if I end up dying here. If I get monstered, if I get picked off. [she was much more insistent about this to start, but she's wavering now.]
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[because she agrees still. there's too much of a risk of taking someone else out if you become a target yourself.]
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[firmly.]
I won't kill someone for my own gain.
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Yeah. I worried that's what it was last week, but... guess it wasn't.
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No. I...have suspicions of what happened last week, but I still hesitate to put a name to it. Or rather to who. I don't want to blame someone and have it be wrong. The last thing we need is spreading paranoia amongst ourselves.
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Yeah, you're right. Feels like half my existence these days is talking people down from the edge.
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...people are taking care of you, too, aren't they? I know you don't mind talking people down and that you care about them so much, but you need someone yourself, too. That's a lot for one person to bear.
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Sure. I've got you, haven't I?
[:upsidedownsmile:]
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Well yeah, but...other people, too. Just in case I don't always know the right things to say, or if it's not enough. You deserve that much, you know?
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Well, thanks. [...] I don't know, I'm all good. I can find someone if I need it.
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Promise you will?
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I promise. [taps her nose.]
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Okay. Good. Then in that case...let's keep going down the road then and see what's waiting for us.
[and we can wrap this...gooby :(]