[it takes her a bit to just... figure out how to respond. she feels so much, she feels it all the damn time, and here, her mortality has never been so present. it's hard to wrap her head around, especially a second time, after she'd put it away in that conversation.
a deep breath.]
It's not. [...] I got sold out too, you know. So - so I relate. We both got sold to the devil.
[she was wary of tying her life to someone else as well, though probably for less altruistic reasons.]
I think many people would be relieved and happy to have a partner like you, Karlach. You're such a brave and reliable presence. But it's your choice, and an understandable one.
[weehhh. that makes her feel good, hearing that - who wouldn't feel good, but. that's exactly the kind of thing she wants to impart on people. that she's someone that can be relied on.]
Thanks, spooky. [she says, genuinely.] You know - maybe it's all nonsense, feel good bullshit. But I hope things work for you. I really do. If there was anything I could ever do to get Delilah off your back, I'd do it.
Even if you think it's something you've got to handle on your own, the people around you can always figure something out to help. Even if it doesn't solve the problem.
[but she figures laudna knows that. dnd parties is the same.]
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a deep breath.]
It's not. [...] I got sold out too, you know. So - so I relate. We both got sold to the devil.
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[it's good that he died. even if it didn't fix anything. it's hard to think that it doesn't.]
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It doesn't change the past, the damage that has already been done.
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Hard to be excited even though all of your friends are, yeah. I wanted to be. [a sigh.] But. You saw. I'm still... I'm still dying.
[laudna's still dead, and it all still happened, and all the roads to solutions are dead ends.]
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I just don't want to tie my life to someone else.
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[she was wary of tying her life to someone else as well, though probably for less altruistic reasons.]
I think many people would be relieved and happy to have a partner like you, Karlach. You're such a brave and reliable presence. But it's your choice, and an understandable one.
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Thanks, spooky. [she says, genuinely.] You know - maybe it's all nonsense, feel good bullshit. But I hope things work for you. I really do. If there was anything I could ever do to get Delilah off your back, I'd do it.
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[but she figures laudna knows that. dnd parties is the same.]
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[she has friends. it's just complicated.]