After Aerith died, he said it. You're our light now, Karlach.
[and she took that as a responsibility! because if all the lights go out, the people she loves are going to be in darkness, and she doesn't want that to happen.]
[ he just stares at her for a moment. briefly considers punching daan in the face, really entertains it in his mind, goes through the whole motions and relishes them and then lets it go because that would make kARLACH SAD. ]
That's a lot of pressure to put on someone's shoulders. Even if he meant well by it.
[ taps a little rhythm on her arm with his fingers. ]
I think you are already doing as much as you are capable of. And no, I don't mean that to disparage your abilities, I just think this situation is fucking impossible.
So maybe you should be a little more open with myself and Gale about when it is too much, if everyone else is coming to you and telling you it's all too much. [ a jab on the you. and the other you. ]
Karlach, we are both capable of protecting ourselves as well. And you. That's part of why we all travelled together in the first place, no? Safety in numbers. Not in one of us rushing ahead and taking all the shit without a little back up.
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I'd offer to get you a drink but I'm not sure your hangover would appreciate it.
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[silence, for a bit, and then, a little more quietly:]
Kind of burning out a bit, Astarion.
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(chappell roan voice) i told you so. ]
Karlach, I am not surprised.
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Well, don't - rub it in. [she is already pulling the metaphorical wall back up so she can be the big strong one again!!!] I'll be fine.
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Stop that. I'm not surprised, but that doesn't mean you have to go back to pretending everything's just fine.
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I'm not pretending.
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I'm very bad at offering comfort, you know. But don't lie when you just told me you're struggling.
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It's fine. I'll just drink another barrel and spend a night with myself or something, that might fix it.
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For fucks sake, I'm bad at it but I'm willing to try. [ AAAA. ]
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... Famine keeps telling me I'm bad at letting people try. [...] Daan called me a light, the other night. A light to keep the darkness away.
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[ he slumps down a little. ]
... He did?
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[and she took that as a responsibility! because if all the lights go out, the people she loves are going to be in darkness, and she doesn't want that to happen.]
So I will be.
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[ he just stares at her for a moment. briefly considers punching daan in the face, really entertains it in his mind, goes through the whole motions and relishes them and then lets it go because that would make kARLACH SAD. ]
That's a lot of pressure to put on someone's shoulders. Even if he meant well by it.
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she rubs at her chest a bit, over the glowing engine.]
He did mean well, and it's reminding me to not be a sad sack, so it's alright. I don't mind it, I just wish there was something else I could do.
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I think you are already doing as much as you are capable of. And no, I don't mean that to disparage your abilities, I just think this situation is fucking impossible.
So maybe you should be a little more open with myself and Gale about when it is too much, if everyone else is coming to you and telling you it's all too much. [ a jab on the you. and the other you. ]
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she just looks up at him where she's sprawled, tired. does not protest the taps.]
You both need more protecting than I do. [stubbornly!! taps the tank asw] And anyway, you both always make exceptions for me all the time.
[the only good aligned bg3..........]
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Karlach, we are both capable of protecting ourselves as well. And you. That's part of why we all travelled together in the first place, no? Safety in numbers. Not in one of us rushing ahead and taking all the shit without a little back up.
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[it didn't hurt]
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[a sigh, and then:]
I don't know what else to say, fangs, I'm just tired of losing people.
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... Mm. Last week was especially intense.
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S'like trying to hold water in my hands. Doesn't matter how tight I'm holding, more and more of it slips out.
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