Well, it's not like you're the only one. [ says yuffie, who was emo about both of these godforsaken honkais ] And this place made it into such a freaking crapshow, with all those zombies and everything.
It's shitty, is what it is. [ that she had to do it, that she had to fight with.... what looked like her own nightmares? that she was literally falling to pieces while having to fight off a crazed boothill monster, even if yuffie doesn't understand what was happening to her and why. there's some she can pick up from context, but. ]
[ she's not looking at karlach, and goes silent for a bit ] I thought I was going to have to, yesterday. When he started losing his shit on Mathis, but with... wiresnakes, or whatever. [ yuffie doesn't know it's rude to midtrial at 830pm and also half the trial was also ready to dogpile him ]
Even yesterday, some part of me knew it's what he would have wanted... the real him. I could have done it.... but it would have hurt. Like... really hurt.
[ now she'll try to meet karlach's eyes ] It hurts.... right?
[ it's about what she expected. she's not that great at being sentimental, but she bumps her shoulder against karlach gently. if she even feels it, giant buff lady that she is ]
It's kind of crappy to put it on you. But I dunno, maybe just watching would have been worse.
[she does! she can't muster the energy to bump back, but it's appreciated.]
It was better that I did it.
[which doesn't necessarily mean she wanted to. just that she thinks it was better her than a kid, or someone who couldn't take a chainsaw to the face.]
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she's just curled up, staring into the fire. today she doesn't even look up or smile, just:]
... Hey, Yuffie.
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Hi Karlach.
[ just invites herself to sit next to her ]
Are you gonna be okay?
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I will be. [she says finally. she doesn't seem to mind yuffie sitting next to her.] Only knew him for a week. It... yeah.
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Well, it's not like you're the only one. [ says yuffie, who was emo about both of these godforsaken honkais ] And this place made it into such a freaking crapshow, with all those zombies and everything.
It's shitty, is what it is. [ that she had to do it, that she had to fight with.... what looked like her own nightmares? that she was literally falling to pieces while having to fight off a crazed boothill monster, even if yuffie doesn't understand what was happening to her and why. there's some she can pick up from context, but. ]
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[she says, idly, staring up at the sky.]
Zariel's not... she'd never come up here.
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[ another thing yuffie intimately knows well. ]
Messed up illusions are still messed up.
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[she shifts, wincing slightly.]
... It's alright. Illusion makes it easier to handle.
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Did he ask you to do it?
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and then:]
Yeah. He did. He wanted to make sure he wasn't going to hurt someone again.
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Even yesterday, some part of me knew it's what he would have wanted... the real him. I could have done it.... but it would have hurt. Like... really hurt.
[ now she'll try to meet karlach's eyes ] It hurts.... right?
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... Yeah. It hurts. [her voice is a little raw.]
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It's kind of crappy to put it on you. But I dunno, maybe just watching would have been worse.
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It was better that I did it.
[which doesn't necessarily mean she wanted to. just that she thinks it was better her than a kid, or someone who couldn't take a chainsaw to the face.]
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Well, still.
[ it doesn't change that it was still kind of crappy to put it on her, in yuffie's opinion ]