Because I've only just wrung out of him that we are friends and that was like a trip to a particularly drunk dentist who cannot grasp the forceps.
[ he does not answer the second part of that question. his thoughts keep rambling on though. And I've next to no idea of what to make of the hands. That's hardly an indicator. Karlach spends half the day engaging in physicality and she certainly doesn't think of you in that light. Astarion is grabbing your face at every opportune moment and the only thing that's a sign of is his annoyance with you. ]
I've only just gotten that out of him too, and that's because I rejected him last week and tricked him into saying it. He hates showing feelings! That means nothing!
[she hears the rest of this though, tail swaying back and forth. her eyebrows raise a bit, and then:]
The hands?
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Also, Astarion's ever only annoyed at you because you don't take care of yourself enough to his liking, you know. He's also bad at feelings.
[ is it? is it strange? glancing up at her, though, a little flushed to have that whole thought kind of. exposed like that. it's fine, probably. ]
... I know he cares, and has trouble saying it at times. And I do appreciate that. I simply would never want to give him any impression that I am-- expecting or wanting more than he is willing to give. I know that is important to him.
[ why are they friends with all these people who don't know a feeling. ]
It is times like this I appreciate your forthrightness about such things.
it's fine, she wasn't actually going to do that, but.]
I don't think he holds hands with just anybody, Gale. That's already a lot. [...] Sorry for holding your hand and confusing you, also. It's not that... it's not that I don't love you in a way, but.
[i am sorry she is just so cowboy-pilled nat locked in the romance path]
[ no!!!!!!! he likes his karlach physical intimacy that is not quite romantic but also not exactly platonic. a secret third thing. (codepedent). he blinks, and then looks briefly concerned. ]
You do not confuse me. I care for you greatly as well, Karlach. You and Astarion are my greatest friends, and you are very dear to me.
[ ... holding out a hand to her right now, actually. he will circle back around to the what he wants question in a minute. ]
I … don’t wish to be in a situation again where perhaps I am impressing my feelings upon someone who does not return them in the same way, Or they feel some sense of obligation to anything I might feel.
[ because once he commits he commits super hard and will become entirely blind to doubts. he is not good at casual!!!!!! but at least he is aware of this. ]
Your feelings aren't burdens, you know. [squeezes his hand.] And I don't think War's the kind of person to feel obligated! But - you'll never know if you don't try.
[...]
You've got a gaggle of people after you, huh. It's cute.
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[she is so amused by this]
What makes you think War's not into you? Are you into War?
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[ he says, like a liar. ]
Because I've only just wrung out of him that we are friends and that was like a trip to a particularly drunk dentist who cannot grasp the forceps.
[ he does not answer the second part of that question. his thoughts keep rambling on though. And I've next to no idea of what to make of the hands. That's hardly an indicator. Karlach spends half the day engaging in physicality and she certainly doesn't think of you in that light. Astarion is grabbing your face at every opportune moment and the only thing that's a sign of is his annoyance with you. ]
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[she hears the rest of this though, tail swaying back and forth. her eyebrows raise a bit, and then:]
The hands?
[...]
Also, Astarion's ever only annoyed at you because you don't take care of yourself enough to his liking, you know. He's also bad at feelings.
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We keep holding hands and it's very strange.
[ is it? is it strange? glancing up at her, though, a little flushed to have that whole thought kind of. exposed like that. it's fine, probably. ]
... I know he cares, and has trouble saying it at times. And I do appreciate that. I simply would never want to give him any impression that I am-- expecting or wanting more than he is willing to give. I know that is important to him.
[ why are they friends with all these people who don't know a feeling. ]
It is times like this I appreciate your forthrightness about such things.
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KEEP HOLDING HANDS AND YOU'RE UNSURE? GALE?]
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[ embarrassing!!!!!!!!! he might die. ]
... And also be careful because I believe they can overhear certain conversations.
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it's fine, she wasn't actually going to do that, but.]
I don't think he holds hands with just anybody, Gale. That's already a lot. [...] Sorry for holding your hand and confusing you, also. It's not that... it's not that I don't love you in a way, but.
[i am sorry she is just so cowboy-pilled nat locked in the romance path]
Gale, what do you want?
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You do not confuse me. I care for you greatly as well, Karlach. You and Astarion are my greatest friends, and you are very dear to me.
[ ... holding out a hand to her right now, actually. he will circle back around to the what he wants question in a minute. ]
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I think if you and Astarion both don't know how much I care about you I've done something wrong. [she jokes, lacing their fingers together.]
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I … don’t wish to be in a situation again where perhaps I am impressing my feelings upon someone who does not return them in the same way, Or they feel some sense of obligation to anything I might feel.
[ because once he commits he commits super hard and will become entirely blind to doubts. he is not good at casual!!!!!! but at least he is aware of this. ]
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Your feelings aren't burdens, you know. [squeezes his hand.] And I don't think War's the kind of person to feel obligated! But - you'll never know if you don't try.
[...]
You've got a gaggle of people after you, huh. It's cute.
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A gaggle?
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With the exception of Caelus, who was going through some very traumatic issues, I do not believe any of these people are after me.
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Just because you don't see how many people think you're wonderful and worthy of being loved doesn't mean they're not there.